18th Birthday

Woke up today. Felt really sad.

It's my birthday, yea, it's even my 18th birthday, like a milestone in my life. But really wish my dad could be here. He'll surely have something to say one. It's this sense of loss that makes me miss him so much. Realli realli miss him. Up to now i have all these activities and projects and make up tests and catching up to do, i think i was juz flung out of reality into some other world where only work work work exsited. But today, when the major projects are over, centrifuge lost it's power. So reality, already set in, emphasised itself. Dunno wad else to say, it's juz sadness, plain sadness.

but i oso understand that the grieving is not over yet. I'll only be kiddin myself if i think i can get back to normal life so quickly without sporodic pangs of sadness.

i find comfort though with the thought that my father is in a much better place. No need to bear with all the crap in the world. that's why the bible says: "Better is one day in Your courts, than a thousand elsewhere."

Can't wait to get there, but my journey is not over yet. These few years are nothing compared with eternity. And the problems of the world pale in the the light of God's reality. At least I know my purpose and will stick to fufilling it until my time comes.

My family got me a journal, very thankful to them=) i'll start writing there. but of cos, i'll still keep this blog.

To end off, thanks to those who sms happy birthday to me=) Jesslin, Adeline, Andrew Fam, Chang Yao, Zhi Cao, Danny, Anyi, Jena, Elizabeth(all the way from down under!), Jia Ying, Zhen Chuan, June, Clement, Janice, Sharina, Sarah, Roger, Andrew Hui, Tai Yi, Ronald, Floren, Aunt Mei Kien, Aizat, Charmaine, Ezekiel, Jia Hui, Sabby, Zhen Yang, Pam(my sis). Hope i din miss out anybody, neway, this is juz for reference.. cuz i gotta empty my inbox!

God bless everyone.
Goodnight=)